Saturday, April 26, 2008

Song: "Leavin'" by Jesse McCartney
Mood: Happy

I can't believe how fast five years have passed. My nephew Eamon (my first nephew ever) turned five yesterday. It's just mind-boggling to me to think that he's five already.

I can remember when my brother called me to tell me that they were expecting. I was newly divorced from my ex and was just thrilled to become an aunt for the first time. When my brother called me nine months or so later, I was standing in a market area in Key West, Florida. I was on a cruise with Krissy and Amy and we had our first excursion in Key West. I was so excited to know that he was born and safe.

At that time, I had no idea what my future would look like. I was scared of being alone for the rest of my life and not ever finding happiness. Obviously, a lot can happen in five years! Now, I want a baby of my own. It's so hard to see people all around me having babies and relishing in the joy that a new life can bring. I think Steve and I will make great parents, but it's so stressful with each passing month. We're not getting any younger and I keep thinking, "What if it doesn't happen for us?" (Heavy sigh.)

We went and saw Baby Mama today. It was really funny and was totally right on with showing how it feels when you really want a baby, but can't have one. I'm not totally there yet... we're not giving up hope or having to use other methods (yet), but I could definitely empathize with Tina Fey's character. The movie was good, but the end was very predictable. I guess that's what I wanted to see... it would have been awful for a sad/unhappy ending.

Oh well...
Until next time

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Song: "The Promise"- When In Rome
Mood: Content

So it's been a while since I last posted. Sorry.Things have been going well here for us, and I am getting totally excited for my parents to come down for a visit!! My dad has been down (he came down at Thanksgiving time) but my mom hasn't been down yet. I miss them so much, it makes me really sad to think about the distance and how far I am from them. There are times that I just have to catch myself because it just doesn't seem real that we're really here in North Carolina.

Steve loves his job and is really happy. That makes one of us right? It's so odd... when one of us is really happy with our job, the other is miserable. I don't think we've both been happy at the same time.

It could be that I just needed to track out and get away for a few weeks, but I am just miserable at work. I am not going to go into too much detail, but I had hoped that there'd be some changes for next year. Katie (whom I love dearly) is going to the new school and will for sure be leaving, but then there was a possibility that three others would be moving around. Changing grades is what I was told. Now I find out that no one is changing grades... we're all going to stay in 4th and the reason is because my principal thinks we're all working so well together now. Which is complete BS. Everyone has been biting their tongues because we assumed that things would be changing for the next year. It makes me so mad.

Anyway... on another note, I am tracked out. I am so glad to just have time to relax and just enjoy being home. We had to take Tommy to the vet and get his "spot" checked out. It turned out to be a tumor, but it's benign (non-cancerous). We're so happy! All the other cats had their well-kitty checks on Monday and they're good. Hurmin has a heart-murmur... and then Eddie needs to lose weight (he is 25.5 pounds) but has lost a pound since moving to NC. Mindy and Toebe both had excellent check ups. Ned is doing well also. :)

I'll write again soon... I need to go eat breakfast.
Until next time...